Life, of late, has been moving at a speed and trajectory too fast to take the time to ponder. It’s had its proverbial ups and downs, mostly ups, but still – I feel a bit like a passenger on a speeding locomotive grabbing the pieces of scenery my eyes can focus upon.
I am aware that part of this feeling arrives with the advent of age, as I understand in a new light, the number of years ahead; but it’s also the exciting and momentous occurrences that want, and deserve, space in my existence. I edit, and re-edit, the manuscript that will one day become my book; and I am in a relationship that could be the best of my life.
No matter what else comes up; holidays, daughter abroad, weddings, graduations – time refuses to slow. The only reliable way I’ve found to make it appear to last longer – is to remain wholly in it. I’ve learned to do more of that.
Since growing older is the necessary evil to its non-desirable alternative, we accept it begrudgingly. But it has advantages. I want to slow down; to see and feel what surrounds me; watch my children grow, find partners, have adventures. I want to make my relationships with the principals in my life, better (and I am discriminating in whom I consider a principal).
Life is ever-changing, ever-dynamic, ever-movement filled. And it is my intention to grab hold and roll with the mounting and subsiding waves.
Thank you for being here, for reading my words, and sharing in this roller coaster – up and down – screams and tears – flailing and crossed arms – ride. Knowing you are out there makes a difference.