It has been a long weekend and I’ve felt lost. My initial analysis of the situation (I’m a Virgo, I analyze) was to be logical: My dad died this time of year, I’m sad. Perfectly reasonable. But it’s more complicated than that. I’m in a new phase of life – my kids aren’t kids anymore, they are adults, my parents aren’t here anymore, my roles aren’t defined anymore.

What do I want to do? Who do I want to be? As a younger person you might think these easy questions to answer. But they aren’t. There is an element of excitement to the decision making process, as well as concern for the consequences. This is the time I become stuck. Paralyzed. Inactive. I want to sign up for an online writing course, but have not. I did however make an appointment with a window lady for blinds and curtains. Because, oddly perhaps, it matters less to me. 

What matters are my morphing relationships, which makes me wary. I am relational by nature, so my center of gravity can become shaky, and I feel insecure. This is one of the reasons I do yoga, it reminds me to focus on me, my breathing, my comfort level, my point of balance, which can change daily. I love my family and friends and in an ever-changing world, I look for constancy.

I am going to ask for your Votes for my book, once again. Out of the 1000 needed for a publishing contract, I need 852 more. It sounds like a lot, but it’s doable. And I’m in the running for the top three! Kindly Vote from all your emails (if you have different ones) and ask your loved ones, friends, office mates, siblings, to Vote too. Go to: soopllc.com, then Vote tab on top of page, then Passing Through (on right) and cast your vote!

It is a joyous occasion when, one by one, we can build something together. Your Vote can help an artist/writer receive a publishing contract. Thank you in advance for following, sharing and voting!